Terribly serious entry

I have been ever fascinated by the belief of not trusting someone as far as one can throw her - and the fact that this phrase especially applies to female acquaintances of mine. For the most part, I can say with a good deal of certainty that the folks that I am most fond of and comforted by are primarily male, and that primarily, those that I have been angry with or hurt by are of the female persuasion. No kidding! You'd think that most bitterness would stem from the failure of male figures in my life (hell, that would be what a good deal of the psychology books out there say), but I've found quite the contrary to be true. Really, I think that perhaps all this boils down to my being quite a territorial and competitive beastie - and I suppose in that sense, that's something that only the males in my life have been able to understand. Perhaps it's a mere difference in the way each gender chooses to define the word "respect," yet that tiny difference has meant so much in the way people have earned themselves a place in my mind...
Taking into account the ins-and-outs of everyday interaction between people, I think that one of the things I can state with any assertion is that I just plain dislike the way so many females that I've been around regard friendship. Let's face it, a suppository is a suppository, be it sugar-coated or otherwise. And well, some women I know are well... sugar-coated suppositories. They're the kind of people who coat and puff and gloss and fuzz up a so-called friendship to cover up any kind of hidden agenda they have - and really, about 90% of the time, they do have something else they're after. It's just not enough to regard a friendship for its own worth - at least, that's the way it seems far too often. Perhaps it's simply a critical failure in considering the subsequent impacts on a friendship before acting. I've always been warned never to mistake for malice what stupidity can explain... but in such a case, I'm not sure which way would be considered "the benefit of the doubt."

I suppose there's just no generalizing - to be sure, the capability for betrayal extends to anyone capable of being self-serving. Yet... I'm not so sure why it is exactly that betrayal from a female friend is so much more painful and ultimately so much less forgivable. Could it be that it's merely the sugar-coated-boot-to-the-rear that makes it sting all the more? I'm not so sure whether or not this is the case... but I do know that it sure is a pain to clean out all that sugar.

Why is it that a close friend of mine from high school regarded so many of the women around us as "backbiters?" A lot of the time, those around postulated that it was because she was jealous of their abilities to win the hearts of her male friends with such ease. And yet... I'm not so sure that these were the types of woman she wanted to become. I think I questioned it a lot myself - but it was mostly because I just couldn't understand it. I believe she asked once "why is it that the ones that I admire and respect the most forgo that kind of respect and love for the snipings of a someone pretty, sweet, and shallow who wants to change him?" And well... I guess I've always wondered myself what the appeal of "the girl next door" was, when she simply had no idea how to value a person for everything that they were worth - regardless of gender. Hell, sometimes I wonder if my friend's observation really extends beyond the original context of relationship issues to encompass everything else - why in the world would you want a friend who isn't interested in being considerate?

I guess this is one of those things I'll never understand... is it so wrong of me to wish for a little respect and consideration for everyone all around?

My, what a terribly serious entry... I feel quite compelled to at least insert a little bit of humor before I end this particular one. Sure to be more humor in the entry I put in later tonight! In the meantime, please go to this particular website for hilarity and quality literary works. Further bulletins as events warrant.